As I write this, I only have one FULL work week left. People ask me, “Are you counting down the days?” And I say, yes. Because, I am. But probably not in the way you think I am. I have worked at the Witte Museum for over 8 years. While I started as part-time I was quickly one of those people that received extra responsibilities and I was here basically full time. Then when I actually did become full-time I worked over time. Because this is America and I’m a professional woman and this is a non-profit and that’s just what you do. So its very safe to say that I have been here for well over 16,000 hours of my life. So yes, I am counting down the days because, honestly its freaking me out.
I am excited about spending my time with my husband and my son. Let’s get this straight, there is no one else I would rather be around 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. They make my world go around. I am excited to see the rest of the United States I have yet to see. I am excited to see my son grow and learn by leaps and bounds in this next year. I am excited to walk closer to God and really understand what it means to be free from this world. And that’s the crux.
How do you be “free from this world”? How am I going to let go of everything I have worked so hard for and to do? I know that may sound bonkers to you but seriously. What really matters to you? What defines you? Who the heck am I? Are questions that occasionally pop up in everyone’s life. I have made this decision to quit working so that I can be there for my family and help my husband on his tour. I want to be there for my mom and dad at the drop of a hat, should they need me. This is what was right for me. I thought who I was, was wrapped up in my job description. But really? The amount of stress I took home every night made me re-think that one. Maybe I am still figuring that one out and I am hoping this blog will help me with that. I know that I want God’s love to define me. Its probably the hardest thing in the world to do. Actually BE the proof of God’s love. But we are supposed to try.
I guess this post is more of a freak-out rambling than a focused idea. So sorry about that. But I want to take you on the roller coaster too. Every up and down. This is not a down by the way. This is that really scary clicking escalate up to the top before the rush.